Mummy's Wish List

Music ~ Angels In Heaven - Higher Faith.

This song is so beautiful and so so very true. Please take the time to listen to it.

1. I wish you would not be afraid to mention Georgina. The truth is just because you never saw Georgina doesn't mean she doesn't deserve your recognition

2. I wish that if we did talk about my baby Georgina and I cried you didn't think it was because you have hurt me by mentioning Georgina. The truth is I need to cry and talk about Georgina with you. Crying and emotional outbursts help me heal.

3. I wish that you could talk about Georgina more than once. The truth is if you do, it reassures me that you haven't forgotten and that you do care and understand.

4. I wish you wouldn't think that I don't want to talk about Georgina. The truth is I love Georgina and need to talk about her.

5. I wish you could tell me you are sorry Georgina has died and that you are thinking of me. The truth is that it tells me you care.

6. I wish you wouldn't think what has happened is one big bad memory for me. The truth is the memory of Georgina, the love I feel for Georgina, the dreams I had and the memories I have created for Georgina are all loving memories. Yes there are bad memories too but please understand that it's not all like that.

7. I wish you wouldn't pretend that Georgina never existed. The truth is we both know I had a baby

8. I wish you wouldn't judge me because I am not acting the way you think I should be. The truth is grief is a very personal thing and we are all different people who deal with things differently.

9. I wish you wouldn't think if I have a good day I'm "over it" or if I have a bad day I am being unreasonable because you think I should be over it. The truth is there is no "normal" way for me to act.

10. I wish you wouldn't stay away from me. The truth is losing Georgina doesn't mean I'm contagious. By staying away you make me feel isolated, confused and like it is my fault.

11. I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be "over and done with" in a few weeks, months, or years for that matter. The truth is it may get easier with time but I will never be "over" this.

12. I wish you wouldn't think that Georgina was just a baby. The truth is Georgina was a human life. Georgina had a soul, heart, body, legs, arms and a face. I have seen Georgina's body and face. Seen her laugh, gurgle and cry Georgina was a real person.

13. Georgina' s due date, birthday Mothers Day, celebration times, the day Georgina died are all important and sad days for me. The truth is I wish you could tell me by words or by letter you are thinking of me on these days.

14. I wish you understood that losing Georgina has changed me. The truth is I am not the same person I was before and will never be that person again. If you keep waiting for me to get back to ""normal" you will stay frustrated. I am a new person with new thoughts, dreams, beliefs, and values. Please try to get to know the real me-maybe you'll still like me.

15. I wish you wouldn't tell me I could have another baby. The truth is I want Georgina and no other baby can replace Georgina. Babies aren't interchangeable. Besides, you do not know whether we have fertility problems too.

16. I wish you wouldn't feel awkward or uncomfortable talking about Georgina or being near me. When you do, I can see it. The truth is it's not fair to make me feel uncomfortable just because you are.

17. I wish you wouldn't think that you'll keep away because all my friends and family will be there for me. The truth is, everyone thinks the same thing and I am often left with no one.

18. I wish you would understand that being around pregnant women or newborns is uncomfortable for me. The truth is I feel jealous.

19. I wish you wouldn't say that it's natures way of telling me something was wrong with Georgina. The truth is Georgina was perfect to me no matter what you think nature is saying.

20. I wish you would understand what you are really saying when you say "next time things will be okay". The truth is how do you know? What will you say if it happens to me again?