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Song ~ Savage Garden
I Knew I Loved You
This part of
Georgina's Pregnancy
diary was written on
the dates it says
the entry’s are from
(including the
spelling mistakes
lol I Know there are
a lot) I felt I had
to include it in Our
Sweet Angel Princess
as the Pregnancy
really was the start
of her life as far
as I am concerned.
After the 29th
October 2001 I
stopped keeping this
diary but have put
the rest of the
story together for
you by using posts
and e-mails that
were made at the
time. It is very
very very long as I
had a few problems
with the pregnancy.
I am going to make
Georgina’s Pregnancy
Diary into 3 pages
one page per
trimester.
~*~*~ 15th May
2001 ~*~*~
I felt sick and
funny all day never
did I think I was
pregnant again! I
have a 13 month old
son who is the light
of my life and he is
my miracle babe. You
see I have had 3
miscarriages all due
to domestic violance
and I was told
that I had a 99%
chance of ever
conceiving again
because of what he
did to me. This
little bubba is also
a
miracle.
Anyway back to what
I was saying :) I
felt sick all day
and funny just kinda
weird! Later in the
evening I started to
be
sick at 2:30 am I
don't know why but I
had a home pregnancy
test in the kitchen
drawer left over
from when my
sister-in-
law thought she was
pregnant a few
months back I took
the test and went
back to bed to wait
for the result. When
2
blue lines appeared
I went into shock I
think hid under the
duvet for about 20
mins or so! Came
back out and looked
at
the test stick in
every direction I
could just to see if
that blue line would
disappear! I think I
finally fell
asleep at 5 am that
morning!! And
Bradley, my son, had
me up again at 6:30
For the last 2 weeks
or so I have been
walking around in a
bit of a daze to be
honest and am
cramping pretty
badley so
badly that I am
doubled up. I have
now got used to the
idea that I am
pregnant again but
am not going to buy
anything
for this little one
until I hit that
magic 12 week mark
unlike I did with my
son, I brought the
whole of Mothercare
in the first few
days of knowing he
was growing inside
me!! Because of the
cramping and my
history of
miscarriages I am
booked in for an
early scan on Monday
4th June I am
looking forward to
it but scared at the
same time. You see a
few
weeks before I found
out I was pregnant
again I had my palm
read and was told
that I would have
twin girls at the
end of
January 2002 I am
due 21/01/02! A
scary thought! But
if this baby turns
out to be 2 it
dosen't matter
because I love him
or her or them
already. Morning
sickness has set in
but it's not morning
sickness it's all
day sickness! Mostly
at night
that's why you will
often find me online
at 2 am!
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 1st June
2001 ~*~*~
Looking forward to
the scan
I am looking forward
to my scan on Monday
but terrified at the
same time. It's the
what if's that are
doing it right
now, What if
something is wrong
with the baby? What
if the baby is in my
tube and that's
what's causing all
the pain?
What if, what if??
As I am sitting here
typing this I can't
wait for Malcolm, my
partner, to get home
form work and give
me one of his
bear hugs. I miss
him so much. He's a
long distance lorry
driver so we don't
get that much time
together and the
time
we do get is
precious to us.
I am so scared right
now but the next min
I am jumping for joy
that Bradley is
going to be a big
brother in 8 months
time. Swinging from
one emotion to
another is scary and
frustrating
~*~*~ Nicki ~*~*~
~*~*~ 4 June 2001
after 12am~*~*~
~ Mal's gone back to
work ~
The flat feels so
empty right now Mal
has gone back to
work and we won't be
seeing him now until
Friday, I miss him
so
much when he's
working.
Starting to get even
more scared now the
early scan is in the
morning will have to
see what happens and
take it from
there I guess. I
just hope and pray
that Our little
Bubba is ok.
~*~*~ Nicki ~*~*~
~*~*~ 4 June
2001~*~*~
~Early Scan~
Well today I was so
scared I thought I
was going to
hyperventilate in
EPAC. I got into the
room and got on the
bed there was so
much tesion in the
room at that point
the sonographer said
she would be very
quite until she
could
tell me anything. It
was only a few
minutes of silence
but it felt like a
lifetime I could
hear Bradley,my son,
laughing outside the
room. It was a weird
feeling knowing that
I had one child
outside and one
inside me waiting to
meet me if this
makes sense?
The next thing the
sonographer told me
she could see an
early pregnancy,the
baby had a
heartbeat, whooooo,
each
person in that room
siged a sigh of
relief. It was a
different feeling in
thereafter that, the
air cleared so
much. Wow, my baby
is ok!! I thinkI
breathed the biggest
sigh as I had been
holding my breath
waiting to hear the
worst. I got a piccy
from the scan (its
posted above) and
although you cannot
see very much at all
it's Our Little
Bubba
There is only one
baby that they can
see but the
sonographer told me
it's very early so
there could be 2,
she asked me i
I'd had fertility
treatmemt which made
my heart skip a beat
literally! I am
still not sure as
why she asked me
this but
I think it might
have something to do
with she discovered
I have 4 fairly
large cysts on my
right ovary so
hopefully it
is these cysts that
are causing all the
pain and cramping I
am experiencing,
fingers crossed eh?
I have to go back in
3
weeeks to be re-scaned
to double check
everything is ok.
Funny thing is today
before I left for
EPAC I recieved an
appointmemt for my
"booking in" scan in
July, made me think
that maybe I can
relax a little, but
thinking about it I
know I will not
relax until I have
this baby in my
arms.
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 6 June
2001~*~*~
~Mother To Be Pack ~
Wow I recieved my
mother to be pack
from Emma's Diary
yesterday! Signed up
for it via the
website! It has
quite a
bit in in this time
around although was
slighty disappointed
that it didn't have
the pampers newborn
hospital nappy pack
(8 newborn nappies)
likeit did when I
had Bradley, it only
had one Huggies, oh
well can't have it
all can we?
Bradley has been
under the weather
today bless him.
Brad being ill has
made me more tired
than usual although
pregnancy makes me
more tired than
usual :( With Brad I
sleept for 22 hours
in one day once
that's how tired I
was!!
But having a
toddler, wow, I said
toddler and not
baby!! It's a bit
more difficult to
rest when I need
to.Oh the life
of a mum I wouldn't
change it for
anything though!
Still scared I could
lose this baby I
won't feel safe
until I hold this
little one in my
arms.</p>
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 11 June 2001
~*~*~
~Feeling a little
down~
Today I am 8 weeks
pg and am feeling a
little down as I
lost my little Angel
James at 8 weeks. I
have been so scared
all
day keep going to
the loo to make sure
I am not bleeding as
I am still cramping
quite badly. I miss
my little angel
James so much
tonight more than
ever why did this
have to happen to
me??
On a happier
note though we went
out for a
meal over the
weekend Mal's best
mate was 40! Mal is
gonna be 40 in 9
days or so and he's
not even gonna be
home he's
working away :(. It
felt strange going
out to dinner and
not drinking at all
well I tell a little
lie there lol I was
drinking diet coke
all night, Bradley
came with us and
everyone commented
on how well behaved
he was and is.
Please little Bubba
hold on for mummy,
daddy and Bradley we
can't wait to met
you. </p>
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 14 June
2001~*~*~
~Sickness~
I've started to
notice that the
sickness has more of
a pattern now unlike
it did with Bradley
I was sick
everywhere
with my liitle boy
in the street
everywhere quite
embarrasing really!
Anyway back to what
I was saying, the
sickness with this
little one seems to
be not so bad in the
morning but by about
1 pm I am throwing
up constantly, can't
eat, can't rest,
can't do anyything
:(. Bradley seems to
sense that something
is up as he has been
so much more
cuddley than usual.
Mummy laying on the
sofa watching him
play he looks up
wobbles over and
climbs up on me for
one of
his bear hug cuddles
and a big wet sloppy
kiss it's great, I
love his cuddles.
Mal is at work and
has been since
Sunday boy I miss
him so much I have
so much housework,
washing, ironing to
do I just
can't muster the
energy to do
anything. I also
have to look for my
pasport it's gone
missing and we go to
Futureventura
in approx 11 weeks
or so can'twait to
lay on a sun
lonunger for 2 weeks
soaking up the sun,
but knowing my luck
it won't
happen that way
chasing Bradley
round the swimming
pool all day will
probabley be my
holiday. But a girl
can dream can't
she??
So tired! and it's
only 2 pm I feel
like slipping in to
bed and sleeping for
the next 7 months
only waking up when
the
Baby is born!
So much is happening
inside my body and
my mind it's hard to
imagine that in 7
months or so I'll
hopefully have a
little
baby in my arms
again I am still
very scared I could
lose this baby even
though He/she was
not planned and came
as a
huge shock. I am
falling in love with
him/her more and
more each day and it
will distroy me if
anything should go
wrong.
Please God let me
keep this little one
safe. I made a vow a
few weeeks ago I
would not get too
attached to this
little
one this early but I
can't help it - I
love you Bubba.
I am going to end
this addition to our
diary before I bore
whoever is reading
it anymore. If you
have got this far
thank you. XXX
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 8 June 2001
~*~*~
~Whew what a
weekend!~
Whew what a weekend
it's been!! Totally
manic and mad! First
on friday Mal
decided to pick me
and Bradley up in
the lorry
to take us out for a
bite to eat Me
thinking cleverly
didn't take the
pushchair for
Bradley and Mal
decides that we are
gonna go shopping to
get me a new bra as
I've grown so much!
Anyway to cut a long
story short Mal got
sick of carrying
Brad so brought me a
new pushchair
Went to M & S to be
measured for a new
bra and got into the
changing room and
started to heave!!
The lady was lovely
about it all though
they made me sit
down and brought me
a glass of water and
everything so nice
of them! Suppose
they
didn't want puke on
their lovely carpet
LOL
Saturaday went to a
BBQ in the rain!!
Bradley loved it
though plenty of
kids for him to play
with bless them all
they sat in a circle
with Brad in the
middle and were all
playing with him he
was in his element
bless. Could have
killed Mal though he
was running around
telling everyone
about Our Little
Bubba. Had so many
people ask how we
managed it as he is
only home for 2
nights a week, LOL,
it shouldn't take
that much
imagination!! He is
so excited! I
didn't want to tell
people until I was
12 weeks only 3
weeks
to go now!!!
Sunday went to A F1
Stock car meeting!
Fun!!! It was so
noisy the ground was
vibrating!!! Poor
little Bubba if
he/she can hear I'm
sure he/she must be
deaf by now after
all the noise I know
I am!
<p>Still feeling so
sick but taking that
as a good sign that
our little Bubba is
holding on.
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 27 June 2001
~*~*~
~Oh Where Do I
start?~
Where do I start the
next entry into
Bubba's little life
growing inside me?
Well I suppose I'd
better start by
saying
I had the 2nd Scan
yesterday and Our
Little Bubba is ok
at the moment (not
very optomistic am
I?). The cysts have
grown
a little although
one has gone
completely so now we
are down to 3! The
woman doing the scan
was wonderful, she
was a
trainee and put me
so much at ease. She
turned the monitor
away from me to
start with, I guess
that's the norm as
each
scan I have had they
start with the
monitor away. Whew,
the first words she
said was "We have
baby here! it's (how
I
hate people
referring to my
child as it!!)
moving a lot, what a
little wiggler!" I
turned my head
towards the screen
and of course it
hadn't been turned
towards me yet!
"Hang on Ms Weeks
we'll show you baby
when we have
finished
measuring". Hang on,
that's my baby on
the screen I want to
see him/her NOW!!!
of course I didn't
say that just
thought
it. When I finally
got to see my baby
he was wiggling away
like a good'en, it's
amazing to see this
little person on
the screen twisting
and turning this way
and that! Another
thing I should
mention really is
you may have guessed
already but I am
carrying only one
baby! I dunno twins
would have been
nice, I'm just
thankful that so far
this little
one is ok.
Friday night we went
to Mal's mums for a
few hours her first
words to me were
"Hello Tubby",
Tubby?? I mean I'm
not that
big yet am I? I know
most of my clothes
don't fit anymore
and I feel like an
elephant/house but
hey it's not that
noticable is it?
Satuarday we went
out for a meal with
Mick and Ally to
celebrate Mal's 40th
on Monday (no he
didn't make it home
for his birthday :(
) Think I managed to
keep the food I eat
down for all of 10
mins LOL great fun
running through a
pub
to the toliets
people must have
thought I was
totally off my
rocker! Maybe I am
to be having another
baby so soon after
Bradley, who
incidently is
walking so much more
now, bless him. It's
hilarious watching
this little 2 ft, if
he's 2 ft,
I dunno, toddling
down the hallway,
arms flying trying
desperatly to keep
his balance, he
looks so cute.
Sunday went in a bit
of a blur to be
honest all I can
remeber is doing the
ironing! That's
about it, oh and
giving
Mal his prezzies and
cards which he liked
I think!
Today being Tuesday
was a good day I
think. Went to a
meeting about a
Young Parents Group
I am helping to set
up
in my local area.
Bradley was the
centre of attention
AGAIN, boy my little
man is such a poser!
Linda, one of the
women
who is going to be
running the group,
is also pregnant due
at the end of
September, showed us
her latest scan
piccy, Bradley came
toddling up stroked
the piccy and
promtly said Bubba!!
I was totally amazed
by this, bless
him, I think he
knows about Our
Little Bubba he
keeps patting my
belly and saying
Bubba!! How can a 14
month old
know though, he
knows more than he
lets on I guess!
I had better go now
before I bore who
ever is reading this
too much and I can
hear Bradley waking
up from his nap now
as well. Not a nap
he's been asleep for
4 hours the heat is
knocking him out as
it is me. What's it
gonna be like in
September when we go
to Futureventura??
I'll leave ya with
that thought for
now.
LOVE YOU BUBBA aged
10 weeks and 3 days!
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*
~*~*~ 8 July
2001~*~*~
~12 weeks Magical~
Whew, where has the
last almost 12 weeks
gone?? That's right
I'm gonna be 12
weeks tommorrow!
That magical 12 week
marker
the end of the first
tirmester and the
start of the second.
The risk of
miscarriage greatly
reduces as well!!
Although I
know I will not feel
safe until I have
this little one in
my arms screaming
his head off! But
even still I can't
help but
feel relieved and
excited and scared
all at the same
time.
The sickness seems
to have developed a
new Pattern now
being more sick in
the late evening
well before I go to
bed
really! Strange have
no idea why?!
Tiredness, I have
never felt so
lacking in energy in
my whole life this
is worse
than when I was
expecting Bradley I
can't muster the
energy for anything
right now.
I don't know if you
have seen it but the
advert for a certain
hayfever spray?
Where the cartoonie
charater has a
huge stuffy head?
Well right now
that's me!! Feels
like someone has
removed what small
amount of brain
cells I had
and replaced it with
cotton wool!
I'm gonna go and
crawl into my lovely
bed which is calling
my name right now. I
love you. 11 weeks
and 6 days stay with
me baby.
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 9 July 2001
~*~*~
~We Made It to 12
Weeks~
That's right ppl I
am now officailly 12
weeks!! WHEW!! Now
it's waiting until
Thursday to see our
little one again on
a
scan! The worrying
is still not over
and won't be for a
long time to come
but at least I've
passed or almost
passed the
12 week marker!
Now I can't wait for
the next stage of
this pregnancy to
pass, what's the
next big stage? When
I feel our Little
Bubba Kick properly
for the first time?!
Although I can feel
him move now it's
like I have wind but
don't have any, very
strange and has me
in fits of giggles!
I'msure the lady in
Tescos thought I was
mad this afternoon
walking round
laughing to myself!
Love you 12 weeks.
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
~*~*~ 12 July 2001
~*~*~
~Scan results~
I have just got back
from the hospital
after having the
Nucal scan and my
results were before
the scan 1:1000
which
is good but after
the scan they
increased to 1:6000
I am so pleased!
Little one here was
being difficult
though got into a
comfy positon and
didn't want to move.
It was so funny
seeing me
banging my bum down
on the bed to try
and move him so they
could see better!
Ended up having an
internal scan as
well
as the baby is
laying right where
my c-section scar is
and they couldn't
get a clear enough
picture because of
the
internal scaring I
have from it, and it
was hurting so much
having the probe
thingie pressed hard
against it!
Bradley was in the
room with me and was
fasinated with our
little bubba on the
screen I just hope
hes as fascinated
when
little one arrives!
Pleased to report
that little one is
now 6.2 cm long (awwww
how sweet) and my
dates are bang on,
little Bubba is due
21/01/02
Had lots of blood
taken as well, OUCH
that hurt, I hate
giving blood! And
the midwife doing it
was a cow anyway!!!
I
have trouble giving
blood as it is and
this silly woman
didn't help at all!
Very short in her
tone to me :(
(SORRY)
A little concerned
as I am rh - and did
not have the anti-D
after Bradley was
born.
Now not back up to
the hospital until
36 weeks due to
previous c-section,
they usually see us
at 41 or something!!
Next Scan is booked
for the 18th
September, the day
before we go on
holiday! Also looks
like I have a urine
infection
as well :( have to
wait until Monday
before I get the
results back from
the lab.
Just have to wait
now for comunity
midwife to call me
and book me in at
home
Love you little 12
weeks and 3 days
stay strong for
mummy, daddy and
Bradley
~*~*~ Nicki~*~*~
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